Bye-Bye Old Me!

"You cannot have one foot in the old, and the other in the new."

I saw this quote somewhere online, and it stuck with me because it's true. Before I started healing, I wanted a new life and to be a new me so bad, but as long as I held on to what was or held onto the past, I couldn't create anything new.

When I started healing, the old and the new fought for space. I couldn't change my reality based on old or unaligned choices. Everything had to change, including who I was.

For a decade, I strolled through a life built on lies and fear, wishing I were someone else, while the people around me benefited from who I remained.

I didn't know how to change my reality. I didn't know how to become someone new.

I couldn't. Not until I shed what didn't align with my truth.

Another quote to hold onto: "To get a different result, you must make a different choice."

Old me was consumed by depression, people-pleasing, anxiety, grief, anger, and fear. I was miserable all the time. I hated looking in the mirror and having no idea who I was—a broken bird.

Healing made me realize that to create a new world and a new identity (aligned identity), I had to let go of all the things that didn't match.

I asked myself, "Who do I want to be and what kind of life do I want to live?" Then I removed what didn't align with my answers and pursued what did.

Then, you do it over and over again throughout your life because your truth is fluid and changes as you continue to heal and grow.

There are so many things that can trigger different values, standards, boundaries, even likes and dislikes. As these change, your identity and life change too because the misalignment becomes too loud to bear.

I used to be terrified of letting go of really anything because it felt like a loss, but while I held on, I lost myself, and it's not something I risk anymore.

I will lose everything before I lose myself, including old versions of me.

Bye-bye old me!

Thank you for getting me here.

Thank you for trusting that future version of you would have shit handled.

Thank you for not giving up.

Thank you for being what I needed in the moment.

Michelle

A Witch Without A Broom